veritas !

“Develop a built-in bullshit detector.”
“When people talk, listen completely. Most people never listen.”
-Hemingway

I get lost in the beauty,
Of everything I see
The world ain't half as bad
As they paint it to be ;
<3

But thinkers in their youth are almost always lonely creatures.

People are rational if you're just honest with them.

one day we'll work it out.
one day
the sun will come out.

I got a 98 on my all county solo today :D.

I realized today that I've been living in some sort of dream world and I need to snap out of it.

I'd like to pretend to sleep,
For awhile.
Where my senses run dull and
Can no longer feel the deep,
Sensitivity of all that has burdened
Me, in ways I cannot
Interpret to be true.
I am caught under bed sheets,
But they are so very heavy,
Made of wood and concrete;
Upon them sits the weather-
In forms of coldness, warmth, and
The barrenness, it ages me,
Across me comes the greeness too,
While I just lie there in all my dreams
Encompassing me while the birds
And streams, and clouds roll on by
They whisper their thoughts to me as my soul;
It perches upon the edge and
Upward it goes.
Until I'm tingling, until it's said
To be that where my body shall be;
It is there,
I will finally be free.

It's supposed to be -15 degrees outside. If we don't have a snow day tomorrow I'll be pissed.

Everyone has a subtle case of curiosity
Within their souls,
That aches
And grows.
It lingers until the aging kicks in
When you've found what you needed to know;
But for me
It continues on,
And on
Until I've gone.

I had to perform my exit project today in front of like five judges which were basically people from around our county that were either teachers or board members or some sort of official of the city. It wasn't that bad but I think I was more fidgety than I should've been. And I'm pretty sure I bored one of the guys half to death. Like he just wanted me to shut up or something. I guess I know how teachers feel sometimes when I give them that look like "stfu" and they're so into what they're saying.


I don't want to go to school tomorrow. For a lot of reasons. I feel like I'm done with my senior year now that my exit project is over with. I just have to pass my mid-terms and finals and I can finally graduate <3. That's really all.


We should've had a snow day today. Practically all the schools around us were closed. It was a rip off. And I just checked the weather and it doesn't look like we're getting anything severe, I think just one-inch of snow and that's it.

ohmygod. Tim Burton is making Alice In Wonderland, due to release in 2010. AND JOHNNY DEPP IS GOING TO BE THE MAD HATTER. AND ANNE HATHAWAY IS GOING TO BE THE WHITE QUEEN. I'm freaking out.

Everything is so much more peaceful in the morning before the sun comes up. It's quiet and there are never any cars in the street. Maybe that's why I like it so much.


I feel like school is just a distraction. It pulls me away from things I really love to do. Not just play video games, but write and be with friends. I like making sites, and playing music, and going to dance (sometimes). I think that all the extra work and projects and exams gets to me too much. And it's easy to let it get to you, because you're always feeling overwhelmed, and you just want to do the crap you want to do. But if you avoid school, then you get grades you don't want. And your life is basically run on a system there, so there's no way out. I really hate it. And I'm disappointed to be going back on Monday. I'm not really looking forward to seeing many people. And I'm not looking forward to mid-terms or performing my exit project power point on thursday that I havent even started yet, and don't plan on starting anytime soon. I have a ton of things to do for AP Bio, AP English, and Gov. And I haven't done it. And I don't want to do it, that's the thing. I used to not care and just do it. Now I just can't stand doing it. I feel like I learn more on my own anyway, than sitting in a classroom listening to teachers ramble on about their own lives, and then try and teach us things they don't even understand. Half of the material I've ever been taught, I've had to teach to myself. I'm sure it's the same way with a lot of students. And that's what's the most frustrating about it. Blegh. Whatever. I wish vacations were longer.

Wanna hold a vision of tomorrow
Understand the truth from the lie
Wanted love and craving some attention
Where was I when you lost your sight
You wear your heart on your sleeve
The weather…

One day through the next we’ll see
You might not remember me
Memories dissolve with years
Age can take the best I fear

Home fails. Christmas fails. My parents fail. I can't wait to fucking get out of here.

The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds.

I love this movieeee! watch it if you already haven't.

whenever I'm alone with you
you make me feel like I am whole again___;

I turn 18 tomorrow :]